Since I came back from my half-year abroad, my interest in Japan had disappeared completely. No kanji reviews, no Detective Conan episodes, no Japanese cooking, no reviews on Memrise, no Japanese drama, no speaking Japanese. Gone, all of it.
I didn’t understand why, and I never told anyone. Even when others were enthusiastically talking about their trips to Japan, I had a hard time feigning interest. Not that I was ashamed or something, I just knew no one would understand. More so because everyone who knows me links me with Japan, no matter what. As if I don’t have any other features. I know it sounds like no big deal, but really it felt so strange because Japan was all I ever had and so I felt an unexplainable emptiness.
Eventually, I told my friend Karolien, a fellow Belgian I met at school in Fukuoka back in 2013. Luckily, she reassured me and told me she’d gone through a similar period of apathy for Japan. I was glad someone understood, as well as to know that it would pass some day.
BUT! GOOD NEWS! IT’S BACK! 😀 😀 😀
Seriously, it feels so good. I feel like Sleeping Beauty waking up after a long, long slumber. There’s purpose again. It’s awesome! I can’t say what triggered it. Maybe the long reverse culture shock depression wore off? (I haven’t been feeling well in general since I got back) Maybe my friend reassuring me had this effect? Maybe it was after dinner with friends at a Japanese restaurant, who were so enthusiastic about their own trip to Japan? Maybe it was an effect of my new year’s resolutions? Maybe it was because I finally picked up where I left off in my Japanese Harry Potter book? I also felt terrible when a Belgian friend I met at school last time asked for my help with writing a letter to her host family, and I was stuck. I couldn’t formulate a single sentence! I didn’t spend all this time learning Japanese to then forget everything so this might’ve been the trigger as well.
Who knows! But I’m so glad I’m back to normal. 😉
I watched all 27 episodes I missed of Detective Conan, did all the 500+ reviews in my queue on Wanikani, cooked Japanese-ish, and started doing my 1800+ reviews on Memrise. It’s surprising how many words I remember on Memrise! I also started looking for Japanese drama on Netflix, but there isn’t much on offer so I’ll keep looking for other ways to watch!
At first, reading Harry Potter went so slow. I thought it was the book’s fault, but maybe my Japanese knowledge was still waking up from the slumber too. 😛 At first, I could barely finish a page a day, but I’ve been reading for a few weeks now, and earlier this week I read over 20 pages on a busy (so many distractions) train.
So yeah, I’m alive again and I feel a lot better now! ^_^
P.S. Completely off topic, but does anyone know an alternative to putting photos on Flickr to then put them on the blog? It’s not free anymore, and I can’t afford to pay for it yet. That’s why my recent posts don’t have any pictures in them, and as long as I can’t find another way, there won’t be pictures nor updates from my half-year abroad!